Positive

I feel like I've really abandoned you all. But lately I've been busy finish my first year of university, can you believe that? I can't. Time flies so fast.

I've been in the midst of finish school think about choice I've made - ones I shouldn't have made. But we've all made those.

I will leave you with a positive post that might brighten up your day until I can come back full time!

We're Here, We're Poor, We Can't Pay Anymore!

I feel like a stranger! But I'm back to detail a cause I have a firm belief in. Tuition hikes on university students. I, in surveying several universities and examining their prices, I settled on one which a classic renowned journalism program with seemingly low tuition cost then most other universities.

One of my application fees for applying was 250$ and that was merely to get an acceptance or decline. Could you even begin to imagine what it would cost for a full-years tuition?

So, in light of news from my current university who claims as they recruit their students that they in fact have low tuition in our province.  Which is fact they do. But, they won't. Our school being a liberal arts school is seriously underfunded by our provincial government. We get like 80% of what other university in our province get. Which is unfair to say the least.

As a result of that our university decided to inform us that they are in fact hiking our tuition fees. All is well, right? Shut up and take the un-afforable hike. My fellow students and I said no. We protested as STUdents against STUition.

Is it fair to send already worked to the bone students into further debt because our government lacks the faith in liberal arts students and their prospects of jobs in our seemingly critical world? No!

Should it be fair that students who work 45 hours at school and on top of that work a part time job because the funds they have already don't cover the cost for education.

Financial means should NOT be a boundary to education.

Whose campus? Our campus!

~ N 

A Day

I'm a very disappointing blogger. I haven't managed to update my quotes pages in days. And a few days ago I gave a very sparse elusive version of a normal blog post. Hm, what's wrong with me you ask? Life.

...Well, maybe that is a bit dramatic. But in general, life took a dump on my head. Every once and awhile it has to make a bowel movement on someones head, right, RIGHT?

Honestly, in losing something we always feel a bit on the damper side for awhile. It's natural. So instead of being so dramatic, I'll simply say that life, took a turn sharp to the left away from my intended plans. (I believe I covered this topic in an earlier blog post)

After crying on public transit and stuffing my face with bagels, strawberries, rice and chow mein, I've discovered food is seriously not the answer to life altering questions (or depression as we folk like to call it, it makes you fat, seriously no joke.)

Instead, I figured I would solve more minute problems. Like that fact my pencil case has gone missing completely. How...I don't even know. So I went to Wal-Mart for all things handy and got myself some pens, pencils and a pencil case I hope I won't lose - lets all pray for a miracle guys!

A new store opened recently in our mall called Teavana. This place is almost equilvant to Starbucks or H&M in my books. I have not only an obsession for dresses but an obsession for tea. And china - tea cups. So this place is ideally - perfect.

I did my nails as well in an effort to make myself feel better!

And nothing feels better when you're down in the dumps then laying in a nice warm bed.

~ N 

New Start!

These days have become vastly fuzzy for me. Reason I wish not to disclose.

But, I just wanted to update you on the days of my life. (not that it is all that interesting!)

However, I've started the gym and a fitness routine. And I've been very successful.

I've lost some weight. And seemingly building some muscle. (double bonus!) I've been trying to eat more healthy, vegetables.
I'm also considering a vegan diet. (strictly chicken and fish), however I'm not sure that my parents entirely meat stricken would cook me the things that pertain to a vegan life style. I will see how this goes (wish me luck)

Other then that, it's been work as usual. Or rather lack there of. I've done nothing but sleep all weekend. These are the unhealthy behaviors I really need to get rid of.  Wish me luck!

Share your stories if you have some!

Enough!

Life can get pretty messy - so can the weather apparently. It can get screwed up, it can switch from good to bad in the blink of an eye. Which is unfortunate in many ways.

Recently I thought, (a revolutionary concept, I swear), when is enough really enough. Is is after you've just put yourself in a constant struggle each day? Is it when you crash physical? Is it when everything in sight seems endlessly hopeless and with no actually sense of change coming your way? Oh boy do I wish I know. I wish I knew when it comes to say "I deserve better" I could do it. But it seems clear, I can't.

Deserve better? There is something that says "we accept what we think what we deserve" but if what you think you deserve is a struggle each day, then lets nip this in the butt now. No one who is able minded need be bound by one thing or another. We are free in the sense that what we want and what we deserve can be the exact same thing. If you want a nice pair of shoes and if you have worked hard for the money for them - buy them. Why? Because you deserve it.

We are victim to classic denial. We deny the things we want to ignore because for a split second to feel good about ourselves. We make excuses for the reasons we do things.

1. They are nice to me.
2. They make me feel pretty/good/happy.
3. When I'm around them I can actually be myself.
4. They aren't judging me like every one else.

Those are just a few I'm sure has crossed almost everyone's mind when in a situation with someone. But here is the thing. Plenty of people will be nice to you, and if they're not, they you probably shouldn't be around them. Here is brilliant idea - make yourself feel pretty/good/happy. No one should need anyone else to give them a sense of any one of those things. It's almost like you're asking for pity, and in my opinion you're being lazy. Being yourself? Well, I'm pretty sure you are always yourself - so shit or get off the pot on this one.

And maybe this is pessimistic (such is my natural state) but everyone is judging you. Even the ones you love. For a number of reasons. Whether you fulfilled what they expected of you. Or if you don't wear the brand names they do. Or if you talk and act a certain way. There is always a sense of judgment, because we are human beings and we judge. Simple as that. So don't expect him/her not to judge you.

The fact of the matter is and I'm feeling how blunt this post is but when you've played yourself out both mentally and physical it would make sense that the right word to use at this time is: enough.

~ N 

La Musique

Today, I'm writing to you short and sweet.

A music suggestion - or two

Such a great song!

And...

~ N 

Let The Chips Fall Where They May

There is an old saying that goes a little like "let the chips fall where they may", that is to say let things happen as they come. People all over are constantly forcing things to happen. Whether it be an advance in their career, and advance in the race, and advance in sex or a relationship. It's always something I suppose.

But why? Recently, I've been a culprit of such a crime. Forcing things in my life to happen way before they are meant to happen. And I have discovered that that is how things in any situation get ruined. People who force things in the work place usually end up miserable because they have made themselves miserable trying to get some where that with the right amount of work might have ended up there anyway.

Is it really worth being miserable over? How about relationships - friendships even. When you make some do something or force them faster then they are ready, they fall apart. Yep, that's right they do, and there isn't anyone reading this right now that doesn't know that fact is just plain...fact. It's something that is part of daily function though. With wants comes the need to have it, so if we can't have it naturally, we force it.

I'm just curious, why? Why is forcing things such a big part of every day life? (Or am I seriously just speaking to a person audience, that person being me.) Why can't we just leave what is good alone? Are we just so self-absorbed we can't see the needs and wants of someone else? That maybe in everyone's rush to force something they passed a stranger that could change their lives. They say don't blink - you'll miss it. The same thing applies to people trying to force things. And in lieu of my own sound advice and experience, don't force it - you'll lose it.

It is safe to say that from day to day things happen. Forced or not. But lets all try each new day to force less things and as I said in the beginning - let the chips fall where they may.

~ N