I am currently 134.8 lbs

This summer has been a long one. I spent a lot of days sleeping in until noon. Lazy days spent in my pajamas. Being kept in the middle of no-where and very far away from Starbucks and any good restaurants. I've spent a lot of my blog complaining about this. So, it's not about that.

I've been trying to manage my diet - however, that plan has simply backfired on me. I have gained more weight then I have lost. In an effort to try to be fit and healthy, I started a fitness routine. Then I got sick.

I spent a night or so in the hospital with a pain in my lower right side down into my right leg. Alongside of this horrid pain, I had flu like symptoms accompanying it. So it prompted the stop of most all physical activity.

The symptoms have all but subsided - some pain every now and then. My energy is very low. Other then that, I'm feeling fine.

I've struggled with my weight since middle school (or junior high, as others would prefer it). I around my 7th year lost a huge amount of weight due to anorexia, it was around this time I got type one diabetes. I was approximately 74 lbs.  I spent several months in the hospital and some time rehabilitating my body to regular amounts of food.

I gained all of my weight back and then some. But as usual weight WILL fluctuate. I lost some - gained some - got some obscene cellulite. And now, I'm double my weight for my height. I should weight in the range of 110-115 lbs due to my 5'1" height.

I am currently 134.8 lbs. 

I portion my meals, and have been eating much more healthy and reasonable food...for the most part.

 This is boneless, skinless pork. With the right seasoning, it can be delicious. I also had a cup of carrots not on the plate. Meals like this will help me lose-maintain a balanced weight. If those were all I ate.

Getting back into a routine when I return to school will also help.

The point of this post was not to seek your pity. This post is simply to say that I have a problem with my weight like a LOT of other people. This post is not to give people who struggle like I do the usual "you can do it, accept your body" speech. This is just simply to say that everyone struggles. I'm not particularly overweight, and I don't wish to recieve messages that tell me you don't understand why I have troubles with my body. My issues are my own. I hope to help someone understand you CAN be uncomfortable whatever your size.

Skipping a meal is never okay!

 And if you don't like the look of your body or unsatisfied with your body, start eating right and start being active. 

~ N